Disregard my previous blog. Any and all benefits of the doubt are needless since the cocksucking spineless whelps waited until the middle of the night to mass-kick everyone from guild. They also blocked every one of my characters, and removed me from the Star Wars guild. There was one alt that didn't get blocked by Mark, and when I asked him if this was how he handled things now, all I got was a YUP followed by being blocked.
I don't get people. I guess now we wait to see if the dick-guzzling cowards start blowing up blog comments sections since they're no better than the last assholes who did it.
The thing I feel worst about is how Claire is going to take this. She and Mark had some rough history before going back some years, and as far as I understand it HE was the one who approached HER about patching up the past and being friends again. She took a big risk in trusting him again and got burned in the worst way; she's going to wake up and all of this is going to be old news. She's going to take it poorly.
Hell, I'M going to take it poorly. What the flying fuck did I do? I called someone out on their laziness and refusal to uphold a bargain. I called someone on potentially wasting gear if they quit. I did what a leader SHOULD do looking in the best interest of their group. I talked it out with the guild leader, who TOOK MY SIDE and then got royally ass pained when I then proceeded to call him out for going back on his word?
I've never been anything but fucking loyal to the group. I've put in as much an effort as anyone else, if not more than some, to bring up my game to be able to accomplish things with the group. I put in face time on the chat client. I went along for runs when no one else would. I did, to my knowledge, everything a friend is supposed to do. In exchange, I get stabbed in the back multiple times by someone I trusted then left out to dry via bitch-ass-kicking-in-the-middle-of-the-night.
It's like every bit of person I thought he was ended up being a lie. In one swoop, Mark proved himself to be worse than Ramp AND Kimi in one day. And all it took was calling him on his shit.
Going forward, I know not to expect a word from anyone in the guild about this. Everyone in Mark's inner-circle-of-jerking-each-other-off is going to pretend we never existed. As I said before, we got unpersoned. Every mote of friendship has been scrubbed off of the past two years. Was this some sort of poorly-constructed revenge plot? I can do better in my sleep.
I've visited the guy's house. I've crashed on his couch. And this is the exit I get. Not to be totally unfeeling for the rest of my friends who just got similarly dumped, but holy shit I figured I'd get a little better than this. I didn't even get cursed out.
This whole thing seems so silly I can't help but wonder if we're the butt of some ridiculous practical joke. Things were (on the surface) fine a few days ago, and this is what happened today? What kind of blackmail does Lexxe have? How the hell can someone who claimed to be stalwartly on my side suddenly turn like this? It doesn't make any sense.
I guess this means that whatever the problem was, it /wasn't/ being addressed. This is comical because Mark preached so long and so hard about going to people to settle up problems. He wanted me and Claire to go talk to whatshisfuck when he quit the Thursday raid to go play on Monday, and he wanted us to do it two weeks after the fact.
I think in the end, it just comes down to an utter lack of conviction. I believe in sticking to my guns even if it ends up being a retarded show of pride. That's... sort of how I moved down here in the first place, I refused to bow my head and ended up without a place to live. While I'd love to draw the parallels between then and now, I don't know what the fuck I wasn't bowing to. The only person who can explain to me why it happened is acting like a miserable baby over it and blocked my every channel with the quickness.
If that's it, I guess that's it. I'll probably poke my head on Thursday and see if Aden or Hem show up, or if they know anything, but I think for the moment the Nightblades Raid in WoW concept is put on the shelf for a bit. I can stand being kicked from groups; Look at Kaizen. I can stand getting into fights and arguing, I did that shit in Abyssea every weekend. I can't stand suddenly being removed from a friendship over I DON'T EVEN KNOW.
I do know that I'd at least have the balls to tell someone why I was kicking them. At least I back up my statements and don't cower and buckle to peer pressure.
You sicken me. For all your talk of confrontation and how similar we are, you are nothing like me. You are not bold, or brave, or fierce. You are scared, and small, and weak. You don't explode, you fizzle out with a whimper. For all your talk of going full nuclear on people, you're actually North Korea.
Grow up.
Edit: Oh, and one more feel-good sniping comment: At least I can know I got kicked before anyone in the guild could out-DPS me on any fight worth reviewing. Suck it, RET PLD 4 LYFE
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