Can't go home again

I'm not thrilled with the title.

It's weird. When someone moves, at what point do they become "from" somewhere? I've been in Maryland for a couple of years now but I'm still from Philadelphia. I got my start on Ifrit, of all places, before winding up on Quetz for a couple years. I've been on Cait Sith for a year and in that time, I've made nothing resembling a dent in the community here.

Quetz was always considered backwater by general community standards, and that was true. QCDN was a sort of stomping ground for a lot of the movers and shakers, if they could be called that, from Quetz. I knew a lot of people from there, I guess, and could sort of tell what to expect from someone's shell or group from the fenced town on the forum.

I never really sank into Cait Sith the same way. I don't know anyone from Adam here, mostly, and no one knows him from me. It isn't bad, it's just a different way of going through the game. I guess what I'm thinking about and poorly bringing into words here is that I'm sort of not sure how to feel about Cait Sith going down the drain tomorrow.

I don't really know anyone from here. I don't really know anyone there. I don't mind this, really. I just can't shake the strange feeling of leaving behind a place I... don't really know much about for the same. Beyond that, everyone will still be there on the other side, even if we end up with a couple of different names floating around.

That's something I haven't quite let sink in, either. As of tonight, Lyall is sort of gone. The name is, anyway. Any macros with my name in them? Outta here. I don't know how to parse THAT, either, since I've basically always been Lyall. It's hard to think back of when I was Belgrade, really. That sucker.

I don't know, there's changes in the mix but the things I keep thinking about aren't even changing. It was different when we jumped from Quetz, a daring midnight escape in the dead of night to a safe land nearby. We knew what we were leaving behind. We're not really being given a choice here. I don't know, I'm excited but I guess I'm a little sad about it? This is sort of the end of an era, even if it wasn't a particularly new or exciting one. Even when we were on Quetz and Midgard got rolled onto us, it didn't feel different. This sort of does and it hasn't even happened yet.

I don't know. We'll carry on, as always. We'll have new friends, a couple more practiced hands for events and who knows what else'll come up. It's just going to be strange doing it in an identical place without any of the same feel. Despite Cait Sith not being where I'm from, we're going to end up in a place that isn't my Port Jeuno, or our Abyssea stomping grounds. I don't know. We're crashing someone else's pad and I'm not sure how to process it.

I'm talking circles, now. Enh.