So this is what it comes down to. A simple request. A simple plea. A resounding "no." Have I lost control?
I don't fucking want it.
Should I care that this many years later I've lose the ability to call shots? Of course not. Do I resent the reason? Of fucking course. Only an idiot would see logic in such a fool's crusade. Refusal to obey? That's retarded.
I should have known better. Over time, feeling diminish. Laws yield. Logic folds. I am many times the person he could be, but she won't fold? Fuck everything we've ever done together. Fuck the whole history. Starting tonight, there's no reason to obey the precedent.
I should have known better. Do what you need to survive. Do what you need to make it. I WAS BETTER. I WAS A BETTER SOLUTION. I don't need her. I don't need to have her. I AM ABSOLUTE. I AM REASON. I AM SOLUTION.
I don't have need for a traitor. Someone who won't bend to my will? MY DECISION? I have no need. I HAVE NO REASON TO SUFFER THIS. I succumb to a fit of alcohol, I succumb to the sum of my parts.
I AM STILL BETTER THAN YOU BOTH. YOU ARE NOTHING WITHOUT ME, WITHOUT US.
Weep. You have no future. Enjoy solitude.
EVEN THIS has caused problems. My real life uprooted because of you.
ReplyDeleteHate does not suffice my feelings for you. I have no words to describe my emotions, no curse strong enough to anchor my thoughts.
Rot. Fester and rot.
Obey? Bend to your will? What am I to you, some sort of puppet? I am NOT your lapdog. I am not here to do as you command me. You know how I feel towards you but I will NOT be told who I can and cannot speak to. I have had men do that to me in the past and that is why I'm in a divorce right now. I am NOT going to be with anyone that puts me in that situation again. Especially if you don't have the balls to actually talk to me and feel that you have to post it here after ignoring me for the last few days. You ignored me and left me alone in silence. He has done nothing wrong to me and I am not going to leave him by himself after all that you have done to him. You have no right to command me as to what I can and cannot do. He's been there for me while I dealt with a lot this week and you haven't. You don't even have a clue what I have been dealing with and obviously you don't care and have never cared.
ReplyDeleteIf you feel that I am just here to obey you and to bend to your will and merely that, then you have had no need for me to begin with. Am I simply a plaything to you? To command and throw around as you please?
A simple request? You requested nothing, you told me I had to quit speaking to him. I told you I did simply because I knew it would cause issues. But I don't feel that what you did was right. You and Alby hurt him deeply, especially Alby. I don't intend to do the same. It is wrong.
I have nothing to weep over. In the last 5 years that I have known you, you have obviously felt nothing for me to throw me aside like this...
Fair enough, traitor. You've made your bed, sleep in it.
ReplyDeleteThat's it? LOL I was right, you don't have balls at all. You are too much of a coward to actually tell me live, you have to post it here like a child. Wolfking, hah! You are nothing but Albys little lapdog she calls out when she can't handle something for herself.
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