33 minutes ago

First of all, I'd like to apologize for the drama that's been present on my blog lately. It was immature of me to write those things, to command someone to do my bidding like some sort of tyrant king. I should know better than to publicly demand stuff like that of people I am friends with.

They'll do that shit without my asking.

I'm torn, I want to keep this short but I also want to drive the point home.

She was never not on my side. From the get-go, not even counting just this past week. When someone as damaged as you is part of a group and non communicative, well, something has to be done to know what's going on. Of course, any female showing you any sort of attention HAS to mean it's romance, right? Let me correct you here:

Rampagesama says:
I don't have any troubles with women as friends, but I've been rejected so much romantically, I don't feel like I can trust my gut feelings anymore, it just feels hopeless.

First part: Yes you certainly do. You are toxic, you latch onto every single girl who expresses sympathy for you. In no particular order, you've fallen for Claire, for Seik, for Kim and now Jaime. You mistakenly and stupidly thought

[Jul 17, 2011 6:44:40 PM EST] void_rampage620@sbcglobal.net: At first, I
thought she did, as more than a friend. But I must have been wrong, and in
the end she didn't even love me as a friend.

when she made it PAINFULLY clear that was not only never the case, but would never be the case.

The second part? About not trusting your gut feelings? Yeah, that's true, too.

I have all of the logs. We have shared many laughs over them. My control of this whole situation, well, it transcends gaming.

Good luck in your new guild. I'm sure you'll have no trouble trusting any of the new folks who join.

Oh, right.

I warned you about all of this, by the way. I made no secret about what her and I had done before. I made no secret when I said I was worse than Claire at this sort of thing. And I promised you, many times, Nate, that you would know what it looks like if I hated you. So much for all bark, huh?

Let me end on an ironic echo.

You shouldn't have provoked me.